Today ..

Well today at church one of my brothers friend I'll call him D. He litterly figured out that I was scared and could here voices and things around me and I was scared he knew some stuff I didn't even know but I knew I was feeling I felt in a corner and scared but I don't know how I felt I just feel like I am hiding my sad face under my happy face and it scares me.... I don't know what I am going thru even I said it was okay for my friend to use me but deep down it hurt when I said that I also love knight but I am scared what if I love him and his expectations for me are so high? I don't know what I think anymore...