Okay so everyone you are wondering what I did and probaly wondering is she depressed again? yes I am got a problem with it get off my blogger. So now that I cleared that up I told one my Sensie my life coach I wanted to commit suicide and I was shaking because I was in the middle of an argument with my mom. (hence he called at the wrong time) so I tell him not to tell his girl I was crying... he did and now he was yelling in the phone saying that he shouldn't trust his girl because she was suppose to act like she was suprised and also I was suppose to be ready to tell her on my own appearently and then I didn't know she already knew which I felt stupid because I was telling her and she already knew I only found out because Sensie told me on the phone I forgave Sensie into telling her and also moving on I realized I think he also told her about my problem before I told her. I am thinking should I just Fire him as a life Instructor and his girl or just Ignore it and move on. I am also thinking about if my Sensie's girl is my friend still and if she hate's me (hence I am wondering if she is mad at me) I am thinking of keeping all my pain in so they won't get into anymore arguments much like my parents I found out they are divorced and living together still and they had me when they where divorced how much can my mind take I don't wanna think anymore my head hurts so much I fell like crying I also fell like crying because Joshua was talking to this girl and his eye's where going totally down her shirt and all his attention was on her, Also I couldn't even give him a inflated ballon on personal high day because one I didn't have enough money and two I didn't remember the day to bring it in ..... and also before I went to go see my other penguin half which I thought we where going to meet we couldn't because she couldn't go because she didn't wash the dishes but before that I declined some phone call on my dad's phone and he slapped me ..... and also I think I should be finishing my homework its just I have a shyt load of homework to do and I don't want to do it but I have to do it .... *sighs* Today & Yesterday Review....
Okay so everyone you are wondering what I did and probaly wondering is she depressed again? yes I am got a problem with it get off my blogger. So now that I cleared that up I told one my Sensie my life coach I wanted to commit suicide and I was shaking because I was in the middle of an argument with my mom. (hence he called at the wrong time) so I tell him not to tell his girl I was crying... he did and now he was yelling in the phone saying that he shouldn't trust his girl because she was suppose to act like she was suprised and also I was suppose to be ready to tell her on my own appearently and then I didn't know she already knew which I felt stupid because I was telling her and she already knew I only found out because Sensie told me on the phone I forgave Sensie into telling her and also moving on I realized I think he also told her about my problem before I told her. I am thinking should I just Fire him as a life Instructor and his girl or just Ignore it and move on. I am also thinking about if my Sensie's girl is my friend still and if she hate's me (hence I am wondering if she is mad at me) I am thinking of keeping all my pain in so they won't get into anymore arguments much like my parents I found out they are divorced and living together still and they had me when they where divorced how much can my mind take I don't wanna think anymore my head hurts so much I fell like crying I also fell like crying because Joshua was talking to this girl and his eye's where going totally down her shirt and all his attention was on her, Also I couldn't even give him a inflated ballon on personal high day because one I didn't have enough money and two I didn't remember the day to bring it in ..... and also before I went to go see my other penguin half which I thought we where going to meet we couldn't because she couldn't go because she didn't wash the dishes but before that I declined some phone call on my dad's phone and he slapped me ..... and also I think I should be finishing my homework its just I have a shyt load of homework to do and I don't want to do it but I have to do it .... *sighs* 
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thats fucking messed up. ur dad slapped u!!! so dos my mom... i hv hw to that i forgot to do. if u want to cry then cry, if u dont want to let anyone know then go into the bathroom 4 some privacy and let water on ( if u want, not forcing u to do EACTLY evrything or anything ). i hope u feel beter. i know im not much of a help but im trying to. i wishe i was a better friend than this.
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