New fears..

Lately I used to love taking a shower with hot water but when I take a steaming hot water bath I can't seem to breath... Today is a day I felt like crying from everything that has happened for the whole entire week I even tried helping myself it just made me sad lonely and by myself... It my sound weird cause I never beg like this I want my boyfriends friend soo badly I want to just tackle my boyfriend to satisfy me...I give up...