Today :)

I am doing a new reasearch paper in my buissness class and the it is so intreasting so I am choosed to research on Chiniese/Japanese Culture and also I picked Engineering and Computer Coding. While doing a research on Japan I found a cool website for shopping Japanese Wear/Figures/ ECT.
http://www.jbox.com/product/KNS202

Sad yet happy....

Well hi people of blogger apparently reading this might be interesting my friend already told me she likes this guy this was the beginning of the school year, I was happy at first but now she just ignored my messages in Facebook maybe I wonder if I should forget about our friendship she is my very special friend but sometimes I too have depressing times that I want to talk about I mean I really do I had dat a person who I thought was a man then It turned out to be a she now I am very upset about that. But I realized I am missing Andrew more and more I miss his voice his face and even when he cheers me up I really can say that I am falling for him and their is another guy who is my friend and he fell for me. In a week o.0 I was surprised. But I am sad I can't talk to Andrew on valintines day :(
Well that is what happened for today thank you for reading oyasuminasi

my new depression.

Hi everyone its been a while I have been really tired recently of the fact that I didn't tell my readers this but the doctor said I have a syst and it might be serious enough for me to have a brain tumor. But hey that's nothing to worry about I guess all the time I cried on this planet is enough but the only thing I want than anything in the world is leave with a peace that my best friend Jessie won't hurt herself but lately she says that I quote "your changing" and things like.... "u say its my turn to talk but when i start u get angry of the topic, so i dont say anything..." To my knowledge I am not changing I am just wondering where in deed did I go wrong was it my fault I told her that "You wasted my dad's car Gas/You wasted my time?" People always say that they love to hear my opinion but in the end they either choose to not follow it or let me talk for the sake of talking when I get mad at a topic its not because of the fact I am mad at you talking about it I am mad at the fact I can't even protect the one I really care about because I am not even in the same school obviously I would get mad but today I got so mad that Jessie said the line "I DO NOT CARE" at a certain point everyone says that but they don't say it to a certain point where it becomes their catch phrase I heard this line from her for only one time and I blew my top off because I too have problems with my family with their arguments I too must zone out all of the arguments from my parents don't you think if I wanted to I could leave by now but I know that won't get me anywhere I am doing my grades for myself I practice what I preach I don't just tell you to do good for the sake of doing

Headache :#

Everything you say or do why do we have to be criticized from head to toe by parents, strangers and people in the whole? Well Ill tell you because it is the natural human nature to judge every little thing that one person does. Anyways thats not what I wanted to write about in today's blogger. I just wanted to write about how my day was, It was pretty good until miss N. came home she was very judge-mental as usual I started got a headache, and a cold as usual I have caught yet again and some other things I really want to cry about but I will not cry. I will try to be strong I have so much work to do I have to type a prototype test for my Romeo & Juliet oral presentation and then I have to make an intro for what the play is about and I did not even start I am slacking again I need to work harder. My true feelings on what I wear now is not because of no one I just love that earring because it looks cool not because of girls who wear long earrings... I have started to write a new story its coming along pretty good so far I might just make a new blogger page for it but I am not sure so I hope that I am able to write this story good and draw the characters how I make them sound out to be other than that I am not sure if I will be able to write in my blogger more often because of the fact I am going to be doing school work and trying to finish my Romeo & Juliet paper it is due this week friday after all and also I might be playing Dissidia 012 so I won't have much time to do anything at all.